If you saw me walking through your town with my backpack, threadbare jacket, long hair and dog, you would probably label me as homeless. And if you're anything like the majority of people that see me, you will pretend not to see me and try to go about your business, or else judge me or pity me. You might even be scared of me. And it's true that I haven't lived indoors for over 3 years. I carry a sleeping bag and a tarp with me and prefer very much to sleep outside. I was born in Vegas, grew up in New Orleans, spent years in Reno and other cities... I'm just not into cities, or the system that it represents (the war machine, killing the environment, raping the land, poisoning the minds of the slave-population, pharmaceuticals melting the brains of my brothers and sisters, fucking profit and destruction and ignorance) anymore. I prefer to live with minimal impact on the environment, not living for money but for intense human interaction. (Hunter\gatherer\nomad style)
Yes I am actually a shaman, actually a healer. I know how to heal multiple diseases and have saved many people's lives. I've been initiated into multiple spiritual modalities at this point, and have been exposed to them since I was a child. I am what Buddhists would call 'self-realized', specifically that I've seen through the illusion of duality, recognized the underlying reality of consciousness (self) as the substance of the universe, practice Bhakti yoga and extensive forms of energy work. I see auras and have talked to spirits. Dealing with spiritual crises is my passion and calling. Especially since I met the Ancient African Grandfather Spirit and became Bwiti. I've studied Ayurveda, several forms of massage, advanced pranayama for many years... I astral project, lucid dream.. The organizing principle of my life is synchronicity and frankly if I told you some of my stories, you almost certainly wouldn't believe me. I've studied with Thai monks, Peruvian shamans, and actual wizards, not to mention several forms martial arts all my life. I don't smoke, don't drink, don't do any drugs except for puffing the herb and, in certain sacred contexts, imbibing certain spiritual medicine plants.
I know the path to samadhi and am a capable guide. The clear light is a clear memory for me. I'm a national merit semi-finalist, in the 99th percentile of my generation academically. I was a chemistry major for several years before I became disheartened by the self-serving scientific community who pay their rent with lies that don't accomplish anything of benefit to life. I'm an author, artist, musician, dog-trainer, lover of all life. Every violent thing I've ever seen I've interrupted. I'm writing this all down in a journal, and it would make the craziest book or story you've ever read. I am well respected with friends all over the country. I can go get a job (sell my soul) any time I want.
Home-free, not homeless, and I'm not schizo, not crazy - I'm just NOT SATISFIED. I live this way because I intend to make an impact in this society, and I'm DOING IT. Sure I could make millions and influence the world that way... But there is another path, much more Taoist... Something like zero-point energy. By having nothing there is another form of energy available. People who aren't as courageous convince themselves, "I'm going to change the system from within it..." That's not the way I'm going about it. I am light-hearted and clear-headed. And I know and live deep secrets of the universe. Most people aren't ready to take the red pill. Most people are not prepared for the ultimate truth, even though it's closer than all the scientists, scholars, and sages would have you believe.
But I want to be of benefit to this planet. So what do I do, save the whales? To save the whales I need to save the oceans. To save the oceans I need to stop nuclear technology and pesticides. To stop those things I need to encourage self-sufficiency, perma-culture... What is the root cause of all of the wanton destruction and ugliness on the planet? Human beings. Thus there's only one purpose to my life - ACTIVATION of human beings. I want people to turn their brains on, and even more importantly, ACTIVATE THEIR HEART. Most people are SO deluded by society, locked in boxes within boxes, that they literally don't see what's right in front of them. (Like, the suffering of their brothers and sisters is invisible.) And I think it's fucking disgusting. And yet I also live and walk among beautiful selfless activated people that society does not even acknowledge, that popular culture would refuse to believe even existed - and I mean DEEP, potent, aware people, who hold the keys to all of the mysteries attainable as a conscious being in this universe.
My purpose is to be a catalyst of the mass cultural awakening on this planet. This is the age of 10 million buddhas. Never before have we had this chance - we must take the next step in our evolution as a species. Or die painfully, leaving this planet in worse shape than when we got here.
Got a youtube channel btw: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=V-s3wYWCCVU
Hope that answered your question...